But i've still taken my time in writing on this blog, and it's not because things are bad :) but because God has poured out His favour on me, and i am still reeling, a little bit, inside...
For five years I've really struggled, and tried to fix it all on my own, to hear God's voice and find the good in the situation. But for so long, it was just hard. Very hard. Very lonely, and with no hope of any change. And then change came, and it only made the situation far worse.
And then, we moved. And it seems like instead of a huge burden i have to carry around, God has answered the prayer i prayed in the Psalm i set to music -
When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord.
He brought me into a spacious place.
The Lord is with me, I will not be afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
In so many ways, over the past three weeks, i have seen Him set things into place that i had given up on. A spacious place. Room to grow, to maybe not be curled into a fetal position, hoping to escape the blows. Even our new house is "a spacious place". And i was so worried.
One scripture i love to quote says "6The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;Indeed, my heritage is beautiful to me. (Psalm 16:6)" And the whole Psalm really speaks to me tonight...